IN LOVE WITH ALL THE GREEN AND ALL THE BROWN

I can endure the soreness, 
Because I meant to reach that mountain top.
My feet may become numb,
But I want to explore the wild and means to adopt.

This untamed world of wild,
Tickle me to the core.
The water that runs through those rocky pathways,
And those absurdly fallen leaves that I adore.

Be it those rainy days or a snowy night,
Either covered with fog or with a rainbow crown.
They certainly are my delight,
I am just in love with all the green and all the brown.

I can spend whole day here,
By just being mesmerized by you.
And fill my body with endless love,
And my soul with it too.

                               - kajal panwar

WHAT IF I SAY NO?

What if I say no? Will you judge?
Now a days people are becoming more and more judgemental. They give their bias opinion when someone says no to them. They give their non rational logic and reasoning.
But why, why is it necessary. Why can't they agree to disagree? Why is there any need to explain , why we do what we do?

" When you judge another, you don't define them, you define yourself."- Wayne Dyer.

It's healthy to give advice to someone that can be helpful but it is up to them if they follow or not. But being persistent about it ruins your goodwill. There may have been a time when your opinion provided them strength when they needed it most but time changes so does situation. If someone needs your help they will ask for it you don't need to push it. 

"Stubborn and ardent clinging to ones's opinion is the best proof of stupidity." - Michel de Montaigne.

So if someone gives you attention but doesn't follow your advice, instead of judging them be there and be supportive of the choices they make. Because some day they might need you but after seeing you being all negative, they won't even bother to ask. And you might loose someone who use to hold their horses for you in life's race. 

                                                                          - KAJAL PANWAR

TAINTED

My multiple bruises won't bother you.
Because for you it was a sight to behold.
You tainted my world with your filthy greed.
But society blamed me and it was "My Fault" I was told.

You blamed my skirt than my saree.
You blamed my late working hours and than my character as for you I was not an "Abla nari".

You toyed with my body to satisfy your never ending desire.
As if I was put on this planet to quench your lust otherwise my worth will expire.

Now people look at me as I am the one guilty.
As if I was the one who desired to be raped.
They blame me or the circumstances,
But when it comes to the one who did the deed, their mouth remain taped.

So I pray to my Creator,
Please don't let me born again as a girl.
Because now in this world of your's,
They are treated like stone not as pearl.

                                 - Kajal Panwar

MY HOME

Can I still count the days?
Can I still wait for a praise?

I will do anything to make you turn my way.
U r the key to my heart that is locked away.

My love for you is beyond the ocean and the sky.
I will be the wild for you and the butterfly.

Can I be the one wishing  you upon the shooting stars? 
Can I shatter the limits you set and the bars?

I can be little too overjoyed cause you're the reason why.
All I listen to is your voice and your sweet little "hi".

Your eyes looks so pretty when you try explaining.
Your sweet little hand gestures and your confused replying.

Your flushed face or your intense gaze makes my heart race.
The turmoil of multiple emotions on your face makes my efforts to restrain futile.

Can I be little gutsy and say those three words to you today?
Can I have the permission to make you the last desire of mine?

Cause when I look at you all I see is a place called home.
Place where you are my family and you are my own. 

                   - Kajal Panwar

SHINING ME

Let my footprints be the memory of me being here.... Let them show the path I took and the way that I struggled.
We all have our stories of success not just in field of fame but in every aspect of life. How we overcome obstacles that shattered us mentally, physically or emotionally ? How we managed to get this far in life even though we are broken ? How is everything that was before beyond our approach became possible to grasp on? How did we manage to smile again?. 

In Japan there is an art called "Kintsukuroi" which means " to repair with gold".  When Japanese mend broken objects, they join the pieces with GOLD. They believe that when something's suffered a damage and has a history it becomes more BEAUTIFUL. 

Hence whenever we are shattered or shunt, we should always mend ourselves with positive changes. People may not like what we wish to change but some day they will see our cracks filled with gold. So every time you face something that shakes you to the core, show your brightest smile and change the meaning of impossible.  

"Progress is impossible without change. Those who cannot change their minds cannot change anything.  - George Bernard Shaw"

Where we reach is completely on us, whether we give up or we scratch down every obstacle with our own hands. Its amazing what we can achieve with nothing but our will to be part of something bigger than us.

Our success will make us shine brightest among the stars but our struggle and failures will paint the sky in our color.

                                                                                           - KAJAL PANWAR

ME

I adore the time when I smile and move on,
Where I love myself more than I ever did.
It must be fate that made me realize,
That what reside in me is a curious kid.

I wish to play with wind,
walk over the clouds to grab stars.
I hope I can be my last love
 And heal all my scars.

I promise that today I will become more of me
Than I was ever before.
I will learn to fly with a broken wing
And higher will I soar.

Be someone unique and be proud of it.
Be someone you will love and you wanna be with.
Be in love with your own being.
Be the real Me.

            - Kajal Panwar

ESCAPE FROM YOU

Danced on your hands, I thought that was love.
Gave you all I have got, but than also for you commitment was tough.
Became your personal sweet, I hoped that was enough.

You measured my feelings, whenever you wanted to be pleased.
Gave up all my adventure, so that your mind be at ease.
Your tight grip became suffocating, but for you it was a leash.

All was first for me,
But for you it was a trial.
I did what I could, I did what I should but all was futile.
Waited for you to reach out, but little did I know your heart was already vile.

Now please bridge my mind to my heart,
Cause it is in great turmoil.
Seldom, it goes bizarre but when it does all emotions get boil.
So i wish to escape from you, before I turn to soil.

              - Kajal Panwar

BEYOND THE HORIZON: LET IT ALL GO

BEYOND THE HORIZON: LET IT ALL GO: Just to become part of you I sacrificed my mere existence but you were that vast ocean in which a mere drop of tear couldn't find it...

IF I DIE

If I die, bury me in the sea.
At least in my death I will be free.

If I die, please don't cry.
Seeing you in tears will turn me dry.

If I die, please have a feast.
Because that will make everyone happy at least.

If I die, please don't blame anyone.
Because there is nothing anyone could have done.

If I die, please love yourself more.
From my behalf too because your the only one I adore.

If I die, please bury me in the sea.
Because than I will scatter in it, tell you how much I loved thee.

               - Kajal Panwar

A NO COULD HAVE BEEN BETTER

Silently for ages, I had feeling for you.
But for you love was another joke.
A No could have been better.

Courageously, I confessed my heart out to you.
But for you it was a show.
A No could have been better.

Seriously, I have loved you with all I have got.
But for you it was a chance to mock.
A No could have been better.

Relentlessly, I tried to move on.
But for you then it was a Yes.
A no could have been better.

Foolishly, I did fall for you again.
But by then you already tore me apart.
A No could have better.

                                  - Kajal Panwar