LET IT ALL GO

Just to become part of you I sacrificed my mere existence but you were that vast ocean in which a mere drop of tear couldn't find it self  within you. 

Sometimes we hold onto the feelings precious to us for so long that they loose their worth. Just to be happy we crave for things to remain same way, we wish to be part of it for even for a second more if we can. Some things make us vulnerable , they make us empty leaving us with only unfinished business. Feelings like being in love for too long even when the other side has left your hand, can be devastating. They can make us more and more hollow than any other feeling can, desiring something that we already lost can be painful. Some can make you tear even if you try put up a smile, its like going through a hell of a torment in a  repeating cycle. Things like love are tough to deal with, even if you have a happy ending you will still feel emotions like jealousy, obsessiveness and fear of losing him will haunt you for eternity. And if you don't have a happy ending you will come to fear this emotion, your mind will never agree with your heart, you will never be able to fall in love again and even if you do it will always be with half ass feeling cause you already know how it can end and how much painful it was when you give it your all. When someone gives her 100% than meet with a bad fate people tend to stop believing in happy endings. They will always make them cry and will always make them remember their own  end. 

I wished for us to be like a rainbow on a sunny day but you became the storm that i never anticipated . I wanted to bind like river and ocean but you became the clouds high up in sky, only horizon was the illusion of our story.