HOW BEAUTIFUL DEATH IS?

Dying doesn't cause any pain instead it frees you from the piercing chains of this wicked world. When someone start dying they loose control of their body, suddenly air doesn't fill their lungs enough their throat becomes parched they feel all kinds of pain for few seconds and in those few seconds whole of their lifespan flash in front of their eyes, they start finding reasons that why is this happening to them why is it all ending so soon.. their mind begs for more time so that they can at least say their sorry and thank you but death is cruel it makes you curse your self for not spending your time in a non regrettable way.. in our last few minutes also we think of nothing but our own selfish desires... but time is passing by and after all that large amount of suffering in just few seconds of dying, there is peace, a peace where our sorrow ends all this pain goes away.. we move to a place where no body knows us.. we are alone with no memories and regrets.. in those few seconds of peace, life ends.. and one beast dies from this earth... we humans are just fleeting beings, we are born, we try to play our role but eventually no body does it... gets tiered of trying... we refuse whats doesn't benefits us we accept what we seem to love... but all this ends with us being returned to dust at last...Precious to me now is my own soul as it is what now only thing of my own as for my body it will turn on me when the time come for it to rot and return to nothing.

YOU STILL MAKE ME BLUSH

Judge me all  you want, but i still savor the look on your face whenever I see you. Nothing else tore me down as much as just one look at your face did. Air seems to be thicker now and my eyes seems to be all red, the sharp tinge of pain that I suffered in those mere few seconds seems to remind me that I am still not over you. The moment where my heart stopped for a second thought and I felt all the blood rushing to my brain, when my lungs remain contracted just cause there was a moment of pause in my life that remained. I felt what your mere presence can do to me, what I thought was gone was still there. Your face made me remember the love once I had for you. In that blink of moment I felt life leaving me, cause I am unable to call you anymore, my throat went soar, my eyes became wet just by seeing you again, I cried without any sound.
Many days had past since we use to be on, but still your smiling face makes me happy. Though cursing is the only way we communicate now but even now your presence made me satisfied, my day felt complete. I was shocked at the content that I felt because of you. My mind hates the thought of talking to you again but still I was at bliss. All this made me realize that somethings stay with you forever even if you wish it to be gone.
Your image is burned in my brain like a birthmark on child.

LET IT ALL GO

Just to become part of you I sacrificed my mere existence but you were that vast ocean in which a mere drop of tear couldn't find it self  within you. 

Sometimes we hold onto the feelings precious to us for so long that they loose their worth. Just to be happy we crave for things to remain same way, we wish to be part of it for even for a second more if we can. Some things make us vulnerable , they make us empty leaving us with only unfinished business. Feelings like being in love for too long even when the other side has left your hand, can be devastating. They can make us more and more hollow than any other feeling can, desiring something that we already lost can be painful. Some can make you tear even if you try put up a smile, its like going through a hell of a torment in a  repeating cycle. Things like love are tough to deal with, even if you have a happy ending you will still feel emotions like jealousy, obsessiveness and fear of losing him will haunt you for eternity. And if you don't have a happy ending you will come to fear this emotion, your mind will never agree with your heart, you will never be able to fall in love again and even if you do it will always be with half ass feeling cause you already know how it can end and how much painful it was when you give it your all. When someone gives her 100% than meet with a bad fate people tend to stop believing in happy endings. They will always make them cry and will always make them remember their own  end. 

I wished for us to be like a rainbow on a sunny day but you became the storm that i never anticipated . I wanted to bind like river and ocean but you became the clouds high up in sky, only horizon was the illusion of our story.