STAR DUST

What if the world has full our head with lies.
What if we were all Martian but Earth stole us from our paradise.
Have you ever wondered why there so much of sea in this sphere but on Mars there is none.
What if it was all stolen from the poor planet and now it can't be undone.

Beautiful sea turned into those red desert.
Majestic creature have to leave their comfort.
Living a life hidden in caves and canyon away from bright.
Away from the site of earthling and away from the sunlight.

What if some part of our being is still there left untouched.
What we know is so less about that red Dot and there are still many years left to be researched.
After all we are made up of nothing more or northing less than just star dust.
                                  -Kajal Panwar

YOU ARE PERFECT

You are perfect

If I don't have the right proportion,
Maybe it just not meet your expectation,
Would you mind that?
Maybe my bosom are apart,
But I guarantee I do have a big heart,
Would you still find me unattractive?

 If I can give you my all,
Would you still mind that am not that tall,
Will my height would still be a bother to you?
Am a pinch of brown,
But I won't ever make you frown,
Would my color bring second thoughts to you?

These endless self-doubts,
Make us blind that love is for perfect people.
Because for ugly nobody opts,

So sweetheart, just smash the mirror,
Make them hear you loud and clear
That you don't wanna be, ever gonna be
One of those plastic fantastic barbie dear.

Just wake them up from their reality like dream,
Say it out loud, Don't hold back your scream
That you'll never fit in their self justified criteria
Of slim waist, long hair and fair skin.

Be proud of your curves,
You're a pure soul that nobody deserves.

                           -lakaj

THAT I LOVE THEE

It's not just my assumption based on biased feelings,
It's your kind gestures that make my wound appears to be healing.
Not just fluttering of heart beat or warm cozy hugs,
You make me happy even when everything sucks.

Maybe just with your short words you did something nobody ever could,
Now I'm even fallen in love with your lousy appearance, that blue jeans and that grey hood.
You push aside all my worries just with your unintentional gaze,
You don't even know yet how much those eyes make me haze.

Sometimes it's your shyness, sometimes it's your untamed wildness,
But every side of you looks new to me.
Known for pouring my heart out to everyone,
But with you I can't apprise the phrase that I love thee.

                  - Kajal Panwar

LET'S JUST STAY LIKE THIS

Sing to me, stories of our love if I ever forget you.
Make me believe, if I ever doubt about you.
Please just hold me close if nothing seems right between us.
Don't just leave me and my mind in chaos if I ever make a fuss.

Sing to me, the vows we took with hands intertwine.
Tell me all the tales, all the moments we shared under sunshine.
Whenever I mistake your actions or misinterpret you,
Just Hug me tighter and explain what I meant to you.

If there comes a day where I wish to be anywhere else but here.
Please just let me know what it would be for you without me there.
Become my everything before I ever let go of you.
Every part of me will exist in every part of you.

Let's just stay like this till the sun rises.
Let just talk slow and fall in love again whenever the moment arises.
So that the passion in our eyes never dies like an old flame.
Let's just be ours forever with little wildness and rain.

                  - kajal panwar

WE CAN RULE

Shield and swords may not be our attire,
But worry not for our safety as we can play with fire.
As we are the only ones that can bring life to this wooden world,
And yet we are accused to be the symbol of disgrace for being bold.

Measured with color, curve and custom,
Rather than position, pride and our stand in the world's podium.
Shut down if we speak our mind,
We are expected to be perfect without being our perfection defined.

We can be warriors as well as wife,
We can defend our own as well as our tribe.
But world still tries to push us down,
Because it would be illegal for a women to wear a crown.

We can rule with all our might but still we stand aside,
Because love is all we are made up of and not made for fight.
But if push comes to shove,
We can rise adamantly high and above.

                              - Kajal Panwar

I CAN BE ALIVE

Arms to melt in and heart beats for the music.
This is all I crave.
Eternal could be us and forever could be our story.
I know this time we can be brave.

U can be rhythm to my song, like a ping to pong but still there is this distance undeniably long.
Within me is just a little bird, who fell in love with her cage, I know right, what's wrong with her!

Dying to try out this journey, with you as my attorney for every case my sound mind file.
Though I know this won't end well but my heart can't tell, as it is in constant denial.

With you it's the starry night and without you it's just darkness that makes me blind.
Yes for all the reasons no matter how irrational.
But when it comes to you I can be alive and I can be passional.
                         
                    - Kajal Panwar

BLUE SKY AND THE SEA

Opened my eyes, just clear blue sky and sea is all I can see.
In this deserted island there is no other soul, there is nothing but me.

As my consciousness drifted apart.
I can only focus on one thing, the sound of my beating heart.

Thirst is all I can sense now, other sense seems to fail in my misery.
How I ended up here is still an unsolved mystry.

My eyes are hurting with strong gaze of sun.
My mind is telling me move to the shade but my body is unable to run.

I don't think I will die just yet but I know for sure I won't live much longer.
As my body is getting weaker by minute and hunger is getting stronger.

I can't tell the time but when sun will be low and temperature little down.
I will muster up all my courage and make my move around.

As the time passes by I realized one thing.
That death is real but dream is of forever living.

As the sun is setting I moved my hand to support myself for standing.
Than only I realized the weight of my body and energy I am exerting.

Harder I tried to crawl towards the leafy beach.
The more I realized my life is out of my reach.

But still through all the pain and suffering as made to the uneven bark of that long tree.
I heard the sound of a miracle over me, chopper flying near by me.

Exhausted and dehydrated, still I managed to shout with my dry and low voice.
But as seeing the result of my doubtful attempt my mind became blank without my choice.

I felt a softer ground as if I am in heaven and breeze on my skin as if an floating.
Opening my eyes I saw the view of my blissful life, my family, friends and doctors debating.

I missed them so much, I missed my life.
Though it was just a couple of days but still my thoughts were in strife.
I loved it to be back in the city and between it's noise and lights.
But sometimes just sometimes I miss that island and it's quite.

                        - Kajal Panwar

MY SUPERPOWER IS MOVING ON

Love is no friend of mine,
Hurt and guilt would just treat me fine.
The imperfections of our perfect future,
Was all I wanted to make right.
But behind those sweet gestures was
A mean heart which held grudges tight.
It's all right, ur lies can't tear me anymore,
Because my superpower is moving on.

I really wanted someone who would swipe me off my feet.
A prince charming or a Sinbad with a fleet.
Just one moment of love in which I can just doze off.
Holding hands, candle light dinners or just a simple correction of my gloss.
But it's okk now even if fairytales are not true.
Because things like unicorn or true love doesn't easily come to you.

So let this love be a mystery, an unforgettable tale to be told.
An unnoticed gesture of kindness and untamed passion to behold.

                   - Kajal Panwar

BUT I CHOOSE MYSELF

I do wanna kiss those lips,
Before getting off from your car.
I do want those hugs,
Sudden and exciting as they are.
But m gonna choose myself ,
And rise up against all odds.
I do wanna love you so much,
I did try to win that heart.

I do wish to sleep beside you,
Every night could have been a beautiful hour.
I do wanna hold those hands,
Every day would have bloomed like a spring flower.
But m gonna be myself,
To be on top and independent.
I do wanna keep you,
I did wish you upon the shooting star.

I do wish to be with you,
In everything and every hour.
I do wanna be your life,
Be your strength and power.
I do wish to be your future,
Even if m not your past.
I do wanna live my life for you
And love you till it last.

But I have dreams to fill with reality.
I have to prove myself to me.
Even if I can't accomplish them in this lifetime.
I Know I'll leave my legacy to my family tree.

                - Kajal Panwar

WE LOVE AND LOVE AGAIN

We love and love again...
We embrace this feeling of desire multiple times in our life.Sometimes with the same person but sometimes its not.. to fall in love all over again is challenging but to be able to love is enough in itself but to be loved is mesmerizing ....  isn't it? But that's not always the case some time you have to hold onto your feeling before letting it all go without being noticed... this feeling is worse than dying but still worth living cause you got to see them every day even if it makes you fall apart every single time.
It may not always be a happy ending but we can't put stopper over it. The anxiety never goes away, that painful clenching of heart really does hurt and we know all this will never go away so soon. 

But someday we hope to let go of it with smile that is real , with the strength to stand strong and laugh and with mind that is free from anguish. 
Maybe there will be a time when all of it will look like a dream, maybe there will be still some way when we can look back at it with smile.

If not today than tomorrow, if not now than later but there will be a future where it will all be less painful and it will all be over.


                                                    -Kajal Panwar