OH! MY KING

 Oh my King! My beloved king

You knew my love for roses

So you moved mountains and castles,

For me to behold the sight of red.

But when they hurt me with their thorns,

You burned them all and they bled.

Oh my King! My faithful husband

It's been years with you

But your love doesn't waver.

I have and I will be by your side,

From the day you put the ring.

But now it's has become suffocating,

As if you wish to cut down my wings.

Oh my King! Father of my child

I don't have the mind of fox,

To be able handle matters of your castle.

I have a fragile heart and simple mind,

Which hurt easily by the critics.

Your soul runs through me now

But I can't win against politics.

Oh my King! My better half

Please protect your child,

Against the odds of your court.

Sometime it's poison or sometimes it's assassin,

Sometimes even the servants try to kill him.

Though he is the only binding link between us,

But he is my beloved son.

Oh my King! Your Highness

You could have prevented it,

But your eyes were blind by faith.

You wronged your own son,

And Killed my soul within.

I wish to hold him close in rainbows

As time we spent together was too little.

Oh my King! Your highness

You knew I loved you as much as I loved my son.

But my love for you was dead with last breath of him.

You were wise and held a kind soul within.

You loved your subject but had your pride been little bit lower I would have been in love with you too.  

                   -lakaj

I'M LOOSING YOU

 

Candle light dinner

Long flirtatious conversation

Even when you smiled at me

Like you just saw million stars

I felt I'm loosing you.

Spring strolls

Holding hands as we walk

Even when you called my name

Like I was your own

I felt like I'm loosing you.

Summer dates

Dancing in the moonlight

Even when you sang for me 

Like I was your favourite melody

I felt like I'm loosing you.

Cold winter nights

Seating by the fire

Even when you hugged me

Like I'm your home

I felt like I'm loosing you.

All those times

When we were together

Even when you told me I was the one

Like I'm the one you loved

I felt like I'm loosing you.

I'm loosing you little more each day.

Each time we meet,

I feel like I'll keep on loosing you.

         -lakaj

TILL I GET THERE

Too far behind in my life,

I'm blinded by the lies.

Some screams turn out to be true,

But this world knows how to hypnotize.

Too much exhausted,

I have burned my resources.

Still don't know what that I want,

I'm on the wrong end wherever I progress.

Too hard to reach where I want,

I have skinned every being of my hope.

But I know somewhere this all will lead,

I'll walk blindfolded and without a rope.

I'm willing to swim in tears,

And forget all dears.

Even if it all becomes my burden to take,

I'll carry it over for years.

Not all lies will make me hate,

I feel it in my bones that I belong here.

Not too far ahead is my fate,

I'll hike and jump till I get there.

                 

  -lakaj.

 

LIFE IS A BITCH

You lost your chance,

And you did it again.

But keep on persevering,

Till you make it happen.

Through all those nights,

And those depressing tides.

You just flip your board,

Ride those vibes.

You can do it,

Just believe in yourself.

Not everyone is capable of

What you can be.

Life is hard,

So you live the hardest.

Everything is not just sun and moon,

But you have to make do with doom.

You cry a river,

And get over it.

Because when it's all said and done,

You make your failure into a fucking fun.

So don't get disheartened,

When rejection knocks.

Life is a bitch,

And you know how to rock.

                  -lakaj

 

LET'S BE OLD SAD LOVE

Oh! My faithful friend,
My favourite, favourite kind.
Let's be each other's secret,
So when I go, I leave with no regret.

Let's be honest and courageous,
Let's not judge others.
As you and I had an eternity together,
Others don't get that further.

Oh! Love of my life,
My heart breaking kin.
Let's be one of a kind,
As some in search of you have lost their minds.

Let's be the theory and practice,
Let's be an example.
Though you and I are one whole,
Others don't know how to love such a soul.

Oh! Merciful victim,
My Only survival instinct.
Let's run away from the chaos,
As the World doesn't try to understand for aeons.

Let's be happy and blissful,
Let it be just us two.
As it's just you that matter,
Not the rest of the world's chatter.

Oh! My dearest indulgence,
My lovely darkness.
I have surely adored you a lot,
As you are what my misfortune brought.

Let's heal and accept,
Let's move on and remember.
As it was you who held my being,
Gave me strength and meaning.

Oh! Kind soul of loneliness,
Oh! My dear friend.
Let's part our ways from here,
Because I have to be somewhere.

Let's miss and reminisce,
Let's make it forever.
As we bid our farewell,
Let's be old sad love of each other.

-lakaj

JUST, LET ME HEAL FIRST.

Just let me heal first.


If I Love you someday,
I would walk over to you and hand you my heart but just let me heal first.
Let me first feel the depth of hurt and soreness of loneliness.
So that when I learn to love again,
Again with a beating heart.

If I ever hold your hand someday,
Just don't let me go easily because I might be in need of a root, a place or a home.
So that when m done fighting within me I can return to you with who I am.

If I ever cry in front you someday,
Just don't try to calm me down with promises rather than soothe me with your silence and warmth.
So that when I learn to smile again I can share my rainbow with you.


                     -lakaj

FORGIVE ME, IF I'M WRONG

Forgive me, if I'm wrong.

If stand for myself,
If i stand for all i am,
Forgive me, if I'm wrong,
If i don't know how to sing your song.


I live for my dreams and ambition,
I cherish what needs to cherished.
I believe  in flying with open wings towards unknown destination,
Otherwise, this world will  die in my eyes and everything will be perished.

Forgive me, if I'm wrong,
If I don't wanna play along.

There are many things that are yet to be felt,
Yet to be known and yet to be seen.
I can't hide my wishes under a tie and belt,
I can't be a 9to5 being.

Forgive me, if I'm wrong.
If I never knew where to belong.

I maybe confused but I'm so damn sure.
That this is not me, I'm deep down somewhere very far from shore.
I do enjoy this wild and endless pursuit,
Of who I'll be and who I'll become.
Someday I'll find a place where I belong,
Where passion will be my sword,
For every battle of hesitation to overcome.

Forgive me, if I'm wrong.
If I plan on soaring the skyline, dive to the depth of ocean, the measure the deserted terrain and live in the midst of woodland.
 Forgive me, if I'm wrong.

       -lakaj

EARTH, OUR HOME

When will it be the last time,
When will it end,
Just when are we going to learn,
How to treat our environment right.

Many strikes have already occurred and lots of changes have been made but still they are no where near enough to repair the damage we, people, have caused over centuries.
We indulge in greed of breeding more, cutting more and building more but we forget what is it all resulting in, where is it causing the damage and what are its repercussions?
This our home, only planet discovered which can sustain us, and we are damaging it in so many ways and for so many years that some which have caused some irreversible changes. Even something as huge as biosphere of some places has been changed over the years of span.
Billions of species of animals, birds, insects, and every other living being is being eradicated or damaged to the point of no cure, by our non-stop usage of environmental resources for our benefit.
When will all this end?
Just how long will this be tolerated by our environment?
Many natural calamities are result of our greed. Many disasters are man-made now.
When are we going to understand that Earth will remain where it is as always but it is species who gets eradicated, now they are of other living beings, in future it can be us.
So let's stop this biased usage and do something about it. Let's not discuss and debate but act and show the result.
Because we can.
              -lakaj

LET GO

Rachel Greene " Didn't you think that you were just gonna meet someone, fall in Love and that'd be it ?"

We all imagined love to be simple and it is simple but what complicates it ? What makes it so hard ? Why does it make us feel miserable and vulnerable everytime any crisis arises?
Answer to all that is "US". We complicate things with meaningless expectations when we already know the answer. We ask for attention, explanations or any meaning behind their actions. We become miserable and pitiful in fighting our own battle to find that excuse which portray them right in our mind.

"Some say we can't choose who we fall in love with; love chooses us." - Alexandra Adornetto

Yes, we can't choose who we love but we can prevent things from becoming detrimental. We can choose to step back and be peaceful about it.

Though letting go isn't easy but if hold onto a rope too tightly, at the end only our hands will hurt not the rope.
Unrequited love in not a romantic notion anymore it's just a cause for severe heartache which leads to undermining your health and mental abilities to make choices. You hold back from so many things, just so they can see your persistence but dear,
           
Are they even looking?

If you are holding onto something you know will never end in your favour,
Let it go.
Let it go and feel the burden lift of your shoulder. Let go of the anxiety and depression caused by their ignorance and nonchalant attitude.
Be free in your own skin and cherish your life and yourself, because such painful love will be corrosive to you.
Sometimes we need outside help to get back on right track, find those options, your friends, family, anyone who you can bare your soul too.
And most importantly Love yourself.
You have to look out for yourself when no one else does, you have to care and pamper yourself.
So that one day when someone loves you, you can tell them how.
                    -lakaj

DEAR SOCIETY

DEAR SOCIETY

You give birth to one,
But when she laughs out loud
You ask her to behave and shut her mouth.
Though it was the same laugh
That made you feel whole when she was small
When you treated her right and loved it all.

When she grows like wind,
You want her to cage her with walls
Just because she has some doubts and questions about your norms.
Though it was the same curiosity
Which made you fill her with wonders as child without any trace of disgust and enmity.

So say now what should we do to satisfy you,
Should we burn our wings and tighten the chains
So that you won't look at us like we did something wrong
Just by being born.

Will it make you happy if we start saying yes to our every no.
What will it take to change this so that we can grow.

Let us see the end of our dreams
And struggle till our ankle turns green.
Let us be who we are and who we wanna be
Because in the end we are just women and we can't change thee.

                          -lakaj